Unwarranted, excessive fear or belief that one has a serious illness, irrespective of medical reassurance and lack of diagnostic findings is called Illness Anxiety Disorder, or sometimes Hypochondriasis.
You have become quite a homebody now, at least that is how you rationalize (and often glorify) your hesitation to be in public. You have had a tough year, with social anxiety engulfing you whole at your very first real-serious job, and it messed you up.
I have struggled with Generalised Anxiety Disorder for a good chunk of time in my teens and I never sought Professional help or talked about it to anyone close to me.
Learning how to breathe through panic, and out of it, has been a part of my life now for years. To believe that I will keep breathing even it feels that I may not, is an act of faith in my therapist!
Yes, mental health day has passed, so why am I talking about anxiety? Because, every day is a mental health day.
I was diagnosed with anxiety neurosis and the doctor started medicines immediately. But these psychotropic drugs take time to heal one and also there are tremendous side effects.
This lack of self-knowledge, introspection and analysis has led the urban millennial to lead a life without direction and to find comfort in distractions.
This playlist is just a personally curated list of songs that I like to listen to on a particularly bad day or just to feel good. I hope you find a song, or better if a song finds you.
Therapy continues to help me process my trauma, my mental illness and sometimes seemingly irrelevant parts of my life.
After several psychological blows and traumas, you have now developed some understanding of your unique upbringing by your family along with the positives and negatives of it.