Karukku is an autobiography that chronicles Bama’s life, from her childhood to her early adult life as a nun, and beyond. The book was originally written by her in Tamil in 1992 and translated into the English version that I read by Lakshmi Holmstrom in 2000. Karukku is one of the first autobiographies of a Dalit woman written in Tamil.
Translator: Lakshmi Holmstrom
Publisher: Oxford University Press; 2012
It was in 1992 that Bama left the convent that she had been a member of for seven years. As she writes, “That book was written as a means of healing my inward wounds; I had no other motive.” We see Bama, standing at this moment in her life, trying to make sense of her many identities; as a Dalit, as a Christian, as a woman.
Unlike most autobiographies, Bama’s narrative is not linear. She does not describe events only in terms of the impact they had on her later life, but writes of the experiences she had as moments of oppression that composed her daily lived reality. In the book, one sees Bama’s quest to understand and present how her multiple identities as Dalit, Christian and woman have impacted her oppression.
Karukku is an elegy to the community Bama grew up in. She writes of life there in all its vibrancy and colour, never making it seem like a place defined by a singular caste identity, yet a place that never forgets, and is never allowed to forget its caste identity. She writes simultaneously of humorous incidents she remembers from her childhood, the games she used to play with her friends, good meals with her family and the oppression of her community by the police, upper-castes, and the convent. In this manner, she presents the pervasiveness of caste oppression – how it not only punctuates everyday life, but is an integral part of it, even in the memory of a community.
As Ambedkar writes, “Caste is not just a division of labour, it is a division of labourers.” Bama’s work speaks to this statement as she describes the servitude with which her family members were bound to the upper-caste families they worked for, including the beseeching obedience they had to show to them. “All the time I went to work for the Naickers [upper-caste] I knew I should not touch their goods or chattels; I should never come close to where they were. I should always stand away to one side. These were their rules. I often felt pained and ashamed. But there was nothing that I could do,” she writes, of her experience working for a Naicker household in high school. “To this day, in my village, both men and women can survive only through hard and incessant labour,” she notes.
Bama also speaks of the humiliation she experienced in high school, being Dalit and poorer than her classmates. What struck me, in particular, is the symbolic importance of clothing as a marker of social capital that she writes of. She describes a college party that she did not attend because she could not afford to buy a new saree, hiding in the bathroom until it was over. While education spaces are supposed to be emancipate, free of all markers of identity and privilege, equalising spaces, they are anything but. The same oppression that Bama faced outside, she faced in school and college, making it all even harder to pursue an education she could barely afford and that she had to fight hard for as a woman. Her narrative is nuanced in exploring her intersecting identities as Dalit and woman in detail. As Bama says in this interview with Githa Hariharan, Dalit women are exploited ‘thrice,’ on account of their caste, class and gender – ‘triple monsters.’
The book is also Bama’s story of looking for a sense of belonging and connection to something meaningful, which she finds lacking in her community at home. She leaves home to join the convent in her twenties, after working for a few years as a teacher, hoping to contribute to a cause larger than caste, class and identity. However, she finds the convent in not such a sanctuary and is just as oppressive as the spaces outside.
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Her illustration of culture within Christian convents is shocking. She writes of the oppression she faced within the convent to practice her religion and daily life in a particular manner. She recalls how she was treated differently from others as a Dalit woman and admonished harshly every time she tried to stand up for herself, think for herself or speak on behalf of those the convent was actually meant to serve. Even leaving the convent proved a Herculean task as she was constantly stopped by the more senior nuns.
What I loved the most about the book is how Bama writes an honest, vulnerable version of herself in it. Its nuance is incredible, as she describes not only her experiences as Dalit and a woman, but also the loneliness of her everyday life. In the end, she writes about life after leaving the nunnery. “Yes, after I found a job, I would be alone. And yes, that is how it had to be. It is now, for the very first time that I must learn to be truly alone.” I find courage in her resolute acceptance of loneliness because of the lack of community she can experience in an urban place like Madurai, where life is not formally divided according to caste, but still performed the same.
I have always loved reading about the emotionally open and evocative relationships that women share with themselves, their bodies, their several identities. This is what drew me to Karukku and this is why the book will stay with me. Bama is unabashed with her admissions and her random musing in her writing. Never does she attempt to tie all the loose ends of her self, her life or her view of the world together. The power of her narrative is in that she leaves the question of how women, Dalits, and in particular Dalit women will ever live in an easier world, unanswered.
Karukku is an wonderful novel which I read with my whole heart…………Want to meet the writer Bama at least once in my life time………….
Karukku is a wonderful novel. Hatsof to Bama for the guts she got to explore the real situations and sufferings of daits and able tackle all problems coming on her way..
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